Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Go Forth

It's probably no secret, especially to those closest to me, that I have struggled a bit with the whole "empty nest" thing... empty being the key word.  I have moments when I feel a bit lost and unsure of what my purpose is and what my direction my life should take. I have also felt the need to have faith and move forward. I have felt peace that as I continue doing what I'm doing, my path will unfold before me. God has a plan for me - a personal, individual plan - I just don't know what it is just yet. While I have felt this in my heart and it makes sense in my head, sometimes my heart forgets. Sometimes I doubt myself and wonder if I shouldn't be doing something different. Maybe I should get a job where I could make money. Maybe I should go back to school and get a graduate degree... I have lots of options. Sometimes I feel so unsettled and I wonder. 

And then this morning 180 voices sang in unison, 
"The errand of angels is given to women, and this is a gift that as sisters we claim, 
to do whatsoever is gentle and human, to cheer and to bless in humanity's name" 
add 180 soprano voices coming over the top " Go forth...go forth". 
These words penetrated my whole heart and soul. This is my purpose and direction. Care for my family and be available to serve and help. I  knew this before but it seemed so vague. This morning though, it was direct and clear. I had to regain my composure to be able to continue to sing. 
Stop fretting... keep moving... trust me. 

I can do that. 


Amy said...

So glad you get this opportunity to sing in the choir. What a wonderful way to use your time!

MZ said...

You've always been doing great things and I have no doubt that you will continue to do so.

Celisa said...

We love you and appreciate your wonderful example!