Wednesday, May 19, 2010
It rained today. I lay here in the darkness waiting for sleep. Usually, when you are not here, I wait to go to bed until I am so tired that I will fall asleep the moment my head hits my pillow. I did that tonight too, but here I lay... waiting for sleep. I miss you. I miss being able to lay my head on your shoulder and feel your chin on my head. I miss the sweet smell of your skin and the warmth of you next to me. I hear strange sounds when you are not here. I breathe deeply and reassure myself that one the boys must be getting a drink... why am I not asleep? You will be home tomorrow and I am soooo glad. I'm such a baby! You hardly every travel and this is such a short trip. You would think that after almost 28 years I would have it figured out...but you are such a part of me that when you are gone I feel it, I feel... less whole. I guess I will never get used to that. Sleeeeep so that it will be tomorrow, because tomorrow will be beautiful, even if it's raining...
I love you