Thursday, October 21, 2010

Who spit in HER bean curd!?

I really don't know why but I feel grumpy today.
I'm tired - been getting to bed too late...
Wish I could take a nap but when I lay down 
I just think of all the things I should do or need to do.

We've has such a beautiful fall and today is supposed to be the last really nice day.
I love Spring, Summer and Fall but when it comes to Winter...
I feel stress... is it the weather? 
The clothes I don't mind so much but driving in it is a hassle.
It also means Holidays... I need to find a way to make them more enjoyable
And I miss my kids, the ones who live far away with my granddaughters... 
and my new little grandson kicking around inside his mommy's belly.
I miss being part of this pregnancy but I guess I better get used to it.
I'm sure it won't be the only one I'm far away for...

And the house... main parts are clean but other areas...not so much
and with any luck we will have some family around for the holidays
and the areas they will be using are simply unacceptable... well, uninhabitable really
is that causing my holiday stress?

Will I EVER get it together?
Why do I let those rooms go to pot?
Why am I not better organized?
Why do I eat too much of the wrong things when I feel like this?
Why do I not LOVE the holidays and winter?

Well, I guess that not all my days (or posts) are cheery, uplifting, thoughtful and insightful.
I suppose it's OK to have a grumpy post on occasion.
Just keeping it real.

I'm going running - I could use some endorphins about now.


christian zimbelman said...

love ya mom, sorry if i helped in your stress..

Celisa said...

I hope that tomorrow is a better day for you! Just so you know, I think that you are awesome. You're one of the most talented and genuine people that I know, and a wonderful mom and grandma. That's having it all together in my book! :) We love and miss you guys.

p.s. We've had a rough couple of days too. Last night, Livi threw Elmo in the tub while I was filling it with water, so he was sopping wet right before bedtime and I had to blow-dry him, b/c she wouldn't go to bed without him. And today she got a piece of tomato out of the garbage and ate it before I could stop her. Both incidents are actually funny, but were stressful at the time. :)

Karen said...

Thanks guys. A good run and I was singing "Singing in the Rain" in the shower (we watched it in Kindermusik). Celisa, Livi's pranks had me laughing out loud. Thanks.

MZ said...

I can relate. I think it's the sleep deficit...