Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I'm no Miss Julee

WARNING - this is another Kindermusik post, if you've had enough feel free to skip it, 
but it's what's going in my life right now.

{this is Miss Julee with Carol Penney - one of the head honchos at Kindermusik}
(Julee, I got this from facebook - I can take it off if you want me to, does that count as getting permission? ;)

I had three classes today. 

Yesterday, after talking with Miss Julee, I discovered that I had scheduled them too closely (and now I wonder if I had too many too). I couldn't get the music to load on to the ipod yesterday, or today and finally gave up after wasting precious prep time fussing with it. 

I had a good turn out and many people brought friends. 
I began feeling calm and completely able, getting to know the moms and their children, answering questions and singing the songs with confidence but as one group left and another came I knew I was on a tight schedule and was not able to answer questions as well or greet the parents and children as well as I would have liked. After the last class, as the last mom was about to leave she turned to me and said, "You need to have more passion for the children.... and get a gate for the stairs, that's what Miss Julee did." It stung a little but the reality is that she was exactly right and I appreciated her honesty and candor. It must not have been too bad though because she still signed up for class 
(even though I wasn't able to make change for her deposit).

I survived the morning and I realized that I have a lot to learn
(which I already knew in my head, but the rest of me was just shocked at the reality)
I felt a little like crying, but not enough to need to reapply my mascara.
Next I wanted to drown my disappointment in
a three scoop gelato at Costco
(Costco was on my to do list right after I took Jenn her running clothes)
- but really all that would do is give me a stomach ache
and then I'd feel worse. 
I decided instead to indulge in half of a nuts about berries salad at Zuppas along with a half serving of garden vegetable soup (I can only get lobster bisque when I'm with Amy and Jenn and yes, I ate the chocolate covered strawberry first).  Without a growling stomach I could think about this more logically. While I could have done better, I didn't totally flop and people still signed up. So it was a success in some ways. I hoped I'd bee as good as Miss Julee but really, how could I be, she has been doing this for so many years and is totally amazing - still, with all the plans and prep I thought it would have been better than it was. I was really glad to have Miss Julee there to help out and making sure I got the right child in the right class - which almost happened. I did charged a few people the wrong amount but always in their favor.

While I'm no Miss Julee I also realize that she's no Miss Karen.
I'm not sure exactly what that means but I'm willing to continue to work and prepare and find out. 
Miss Julee believes in me (I hope she still does), the moms believe in me enough me to sign up...
I CAN do this. 
But right now I'm going to take a nap.

Sorry for the lack of pictures, while I had the camera ready and was planning to take pictures the batteries were dead.


Grandma T. said...

You are correct, Karen, you are no Miss Julee. Thankfully, you are Karen -- our Karen -- and you will be great at this new venture. Who wouldn't be nervous the first day -- even the greatest performers are nervous before every gig! (Nerves make us do better.) I'm sure the parents were favorably impressed. Love, Me

Dave and Mandy said...

What I would give to attend Kindermusik with Miss Karen. I know George would love you. We've attended Kindermusik here in CA and no one compares to Miss Julee. Just be your cute self!